Some things just are not worth responding to. If I hadn’t said anything, I wouldn’t have attempted suicide.
I thought people saw me as their best friend but I guess I was wrong.
I often compare myself to others and ask, “Am I good enough?” despite knowing I shouldn’t compare others to myself. But I can’t help it. Read more
It’s the sixth month of the year, but the year itself feels like it’s been six years long already.
Apologies for the lack of posts. I definitely got lazy. I’ll avoid it as much as possible from now on.
So I did not sleep very well…actually, I didn’t sleep at all. I don’t think I have insomnia. I just have a lot on my mind.
There are words on a document. Words for Celestial Symphony. Words for Chapter 1. Actual sentences, not just an outline.
This is progress.
Last week, I didn’t even have a name.
Now, I have sentences and paragraphs.
I have an outline.
Today, I got a text right after I woke up from a really good nap. It was long, it started with, “Zan, I’m so sorry to do this…” I instantly knew. Read more
Last night, for the first time in almost two months, I had serious thoughts of suicide. I think my main issue is that I haven’t found something to distract myself if I were to take a break from social media while I have writer’s block. Because right now, my plan is that when I have writer’s block, I’m on social media, and when I’m sad, I write and avoid social media. But when I’m sad and have writer’s block, what do I do? Do I just sit there?
I’ve been told that I’m loyal. But it takes effort to be loyal. Nowadays, these people are out here pretending to be loyal. But it takes so much energy to PRETEND.